Unlike protein and tryptophan though, I knew this one could happen. Both my doctor and the Forks Over Knives How To Companion Book suggested a supplement be taken while on this nutritional program because the vitamin B 12 is essential for energy production. I just haven't wanted to take it. When I have in the past, it's made me feel jumpy; like I've had few a really strong cups of coffee. But I'm gonna have to change my tune. For the last several nights, I have gotten at least 8 to 9 hours of sleep only to be totally spent the following day. And we're talking really good, deep sleep. The kind indicated by big blanket creases across your face. But good sleep hasn't been enough to keep me alert through the day. Crazy isn't it? That getting a good night sleep might not be enough. I've never associated the feeling of being "rested' with anything other than sleep. This makes me wonder a bit about the other aspects of my life that are directly affected by diet, yet I associate them to something else.
My natural thought: Not enough sleep My natural thought: Just been "one of those days"
Food-related possibility: Need more vitamin B 12 Food-related possibility: Serotonin low
Problem: Restless sleeping
My natural thought: Stressed & busy mind
Food-related possibility: Need more tryptophan
If you consider a typical American's solution to these "problems" though, food is not even part of the conversation. When was the last time someone told you they went to the doctor about feeling depressed and they were told to increase their protein (serotonin is produced with the help of protein)? Instead, if we're tired we have caffeine. If we're depressed we take an anti-depressant. If our sleep is restless, we pop an Ambien. I'm not saying that these are bad solutions. I am the first to admit I've done this. But it would have been nice to know (before the meds) what I could have done naturally. Not that I would have done it...but it would have been nice to know. And I'm glad I know now.
I have now been reduced to staring at photos of what once was and looking forward to "cheating" by way of a turkey sandwich. What the hell was I thinking? These days I dread feeling hungry because I know that means I have to eat to make that feeling to away. Nowadays, I eat to live and for no other reason. This has been a strange adjustment. Where once I used to look forward to every meal and get excited about the things I could cook and how yummy they'd be, I now just throw random stuff in a bowl (stuff I know has the nutrients I need), pour some type of vinegar or runny sauce over the top and force it down. The downside, of course, is that there is no pleasure. But there is an upside too (thank God). It's kind-of like exercise. You hate to do it but you always feel great afterwards. Once I've eaten, I'm really proud that I've remained on the diet, I hardly ever feel tired --which used to be common for me, and I enjoy knowing I've eaten the right things that are going to optimize how my body works and how I feel. And I do feel good. Not great yet, but (aside from my amateur nutrient challenges) solidly good.
Most people that have been on the Forks Over Knives nutritional program for a while report "never feeling better." That's encouraging because something has to keep me from falling off the wagon. "Never feeling better" is something to live for, I guess. But when you hear really enthusiastic people swearing they'll never go back to their old ways, it helps. For a week now I have been trying to contact members of the Esselstyn Nutritional Program support group. To translate this, Dr. Esselstyn was one of the three doctors featured in the Forks Over Knives documentary so this is an actual SUPPORT GROUP for the diet. This is nuts! Anyway, I finally heard back from a lady yesterday who wrote the following: "Tracy, I cried first wk. but after 15 mo. would never change. Feel great, half the pills and BP good!!!" It's life-changing personal stories like this that remind me how important this diet can be, how respectful I want to be of it and how much I want to give it a fair shot. Even if it is just for six weeks.